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I am in such a weird place right now. I'm numb, sort of but I still hurt. I dont' want to hurt because I know he's not. And so I'll sit here I guess, and try my best to get over him. Because he hurt me twice, and used me. I don't deserve that.

Nor do I want it, but I think mostly I want someone to think about, someone who (I think) cares about me the way I care about them. I'll find that person someday, someone who isn't using me as a time filler until someone else is available (backfired on his ass...) Someone who truly cares how I feel and who I can talk to. I never really got overly emotionally close to him, and for that I'm glad because then it would hurt even more than it does. He's manipulative, and a jerk. I dont' need that.

I haven't cried much, crying = weakness. I'm not going to either. Because he's simply not worth it.

*giggles* I heart my random MP3 :) Time for some stress-relieving fun :)

Since you've been gone
I feel so much better [or will soon]
'Cause I saw how mean you could be [mean... using... manipulative...]
I used to want some explaination [the one you gave was not a whole truth. I knew it then, and still know it now]
Now all I want is my Patsy Cline CD [SimIsle, actually. And that pan]
How I've waited for today
When I could finally say
You jerk (you jerk)
You are such a jerk
There are other words
But they just don't work (jerk) [JERK!]
Sometimes I wish I mailed you that letter
That said the things I did not say (shhhhhhh)
Instead, I set the thing on fire
I had to say this out loud anyway [actually haven't written it yet. Gonna soon]
I'm so glad I found the nerve
To say what you deserve
You jerk (you jerk)
You are such a jerk
There are other words
But they just don't work
You tryin' to be so cool
Sold you like a fool [think about it]
Never take your call
And you're nobody at all
Until somebody in bed
Wanna be your friend
How come jerks don't know they're jerks??? [I hope you know now]
(I don't know... pfff)
So next time someone makes you feel little [I won't be foolish again]
Just sing this song inside your head
And like a great big cartoon bubble
Those lovely words will dance above their head
How I've waited for today
When I could finally say
You jerk, you jerk
You are such a jerk
There are other words
But they just don't work
You jerk, you jerk
You are such a jerk
There are other words
But they just don't work
Oh yeah
Not a very nice person [you have other redeeming qualities... kinda...]
Some people would call you a bully
Maybe a creep [yes!]
Maybe just mean [very mean sometimes]
But you're not very nice in my books [or the books of the people I've talked to recently]
And not in my mother's either [she thinks you smell of donkey poo]

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argh