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A side effect of Chandi drinking alcohol is she's quite depressed afterwards for the next little bit. Bear with me.

The party was cool I guess. Most of my guests showed up on time, but Stef and Matt were just being jerks. It was like they came because I asked them to, not because the wanted to. That's not cool. So, they showed up late, left early and seemed annoyed (at least to me) that they were there. Remind me to not make that mistake again.

after dinner and stuff we went to Andrew's place and that was alright. Saw nemo again, who was generally a nice bird for a while until he tried to eat me. Silly thing. Goofed off at andrew's for a bit and then rode the train to whitehorn with drewie and fiona. By the time I got to my bus I was in a fowl mood and by the time I got home I was nearly in tears (this is why I don't drink often and if I do it's 1 or 2 drinks, not six (two were doubles) ) I ranted to mana for a bit, then she went to bed. I went to read and fell asleep, waking at about 2:00 ish, put my computer on away mode, undressed and went back to bed until 9:30.

I think things are good for me now. I hope they are. My next goal is to learn to talk openly about my feelings and opinions now that I realize that having feelings and opinions about things are okay.

You're naked inside your fear
You can't take back all those years
Shots in the dark from empty guns
Were never heard by anyone
Never heard by anyone