*sigh*

What exactly my problem is, I'm not sure. I don't do my schoolwork. I don't want to fail, and I don't think I will, but I just can't be fucked to try anymore. I wrote a half-assed paper for bio (actually, it's well written, but I know I could have put more in it), and I spent the rest of the time playing online instead of studying. I just don't care anymore I guess...

I guess I know why I'm down- the 4th anniversary of Jen's death is... well... technically today. because we're 25 minutes into today. I hate it. June 10th always blows. I will be depressed all day, people will be "why are you so depressed" and I will say "nothing is wrong" but I will think "Go fuck yourself". I hate talking about the accident, and so I hope that no one remembers that today is the anniversary, and that they will just not notice me being sad. You know, I thought I was over it. I truly did. And I'm sitting here, with tears in my eyes, blinking them back. It's not supposed to be this hard, is it? It's four years ago, for fucks' sake. Shouldn't I be over it? Veronica is trying to talk sense into me. She wants me to take tomorrow off, but I can't. So I'll just end up crying like a freak in my classes like I did throughout my depression or something.

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I had a thought today while I was in class or something... I wonder when my LJ anniversary is. It's actually on March 24th, 2001... So I've been writing in this thing for like, 1 1/4 years. And not very many entries either. Well, maybe. *shrugs*

Today wasn't so bad. I only had to leave on class today, and that sucked, becasue the teacher was easy on the eyes. (Mr. Mikkelson, a student teacher in social last year subbed for Ms. Wirth today) *grins*

I must stop chewing on pens. One of these days, I will end up with ink in my mouth. which simply won't be good.

I stabbed the inside of my mouth today with my toothbrush. Right in front of my bottom canine tooth, between my bottom lip and the gum. Go ahead, use your tongue to feel the spot in your mouth :P

Jo's Dance show is tomorrow. I haven't seen her for ages. Ages upon ages, even. I will go to her show, and if Kristy shows up, so will Kristy. If Kristy dosen't show up, I have an extra ticket. Any takers?

Kristy has been pissing me off. but we won't go there. ::frustrated::

Earlier tonight I took my practise exam for english, went into my room, put it on my bed, laid on my tummy to do my homework, and promptly fell asleep. Woke up about 20 minutes later, with drool on my arm... ew.