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amigone2515) wrote2003-10-28 09:52 pm
amigone2515) wrote2003-10-28 09:52 pm
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I am in such a weird place right now. I'm numb, sort of but I still hurt. I dont' want to hurt because I know he's not. And so I'll sit here I guess, and try my best to get over him. Because he hurt me twice, and used me. I don't deserve that.
Nor do I want it, but I think mostly I want someone to think about, someone who (I think) cares about me the way I care about them. I'll find that person someday, someone who isn't using me as a time filler until someone else is available (backfired on his ass...) Someone who truly cares how I feel and who I can talk to. I never really got overly emotionally close to him, and for that I'm glad because then it would hurt even more than it does. He's manipulative, and a jerk. I dont' need that.
I haven't cried much, crying = weakness. I'm not going to either. Because he's simply not worth it.
Nor do I want it, but I think mostly I want someone to think about, someone who (I think) cares about me the way I care about them. I'll find that person someday, someone who isn't using me as a time filler until someone else is available (backfired on his ass...) Someone who truly cares how I feel and who I can talk to. I never really got overly emotionally close to him, and for that I'm glad because then it would hurt even more than it does. He's manipulative, and a jerk. I dont' need that.
I haven't cried much, crying = weakness. I'm not going to either. Because he's simply not worth it.
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Also, I made it home ok :)