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She is constantly on my back. She makes me feel like shit, and is the only one who can succeed in having me believe that about myself. She wants to have a close relationship. I dont' want one anymore. I can't stand the woman. It's too bad i'm such a loser, I can't manage to apply for a university right out of high school. Probably wouldn't get in anyways.

I hate this. I'm constantly mood swinging. It's not like, PMS or anything, it's like it was before I did my year and a half of anti-depressants. I hated those drugs. And I hate them now, because I don't remember that year and a half. Yay for mood altering drugs.

so *applauds mother* You've just succeeded in yet, again, making your oldest daughter feel like a piece of shit. It's just too bad i'm not as passive as I used to be, and that I yell back. I'm glad she dosen't use the internet. If she found this entry, she'd shove me right back to the shrink for more drugs, and then she'd kick my ass out of the house for badmouthing her.

I've got to get it out somehow. And I believe I will be using this more often now, instead of neglecting it like I have been.

so yeah. I will switch my laundry, find my brace, and go to bed. I'm not allowed to sleep without it anymore.

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Got the link from Mary *hi mary!*




She also mentions that the results are totally random :)